Mother of the Year Essay

I think I should be mother of the year because my goals in life are to be the best mother in the world (for my child) and that means, get my education (GED), go to Cosmetology School and make something out of it.  So I could be independent and make it on my own and be a good example for my son.  So he could be proud of me in the future and so my family could be proud specialy my dad.
               
About three years ago, my babys father and I decided to live together, so I ran away from home with him.  I guess the strong feelings I had for him made me not see what I was going to go through, we had about 2 months together when he got deported to Mexico and at that time I was so blind and so in love that I decided to follow him all the way to Mexico, not knowing the consequences I decided to be with him and far away from my family.  In Mexico everything was great at the beginning, but then things started changing we would always argue and started having problems he wouldn’t try to get a job.  And he wouldn’t let me work so the arguments started getting worst till the point that he was starting to raise his hand at me and scream at me like never before.  I thought he was going to get over it and never do it again but I was wrong he kept doing it and event worst he got to the point that one night he got so mad at me and decided to get me out in the middle of the street not caring who was out there started beating me up not carring about what could have happened to me, that’s when I realized the monster that I had been all along with.  I felt like my world ended I was so sad and disappointed on my self.  That’s when I regreated not listening to my mother.  And that’s when I needed her the most.  At that time it was so hard for me, far away from my family and all alone my thoughts at that moment was to kill my self but I knew that wasn’t the way out, for days it was hard for me, some times I spent days with out eating because I had nothing to eat and no phone or money to get in touch with my family.  Not until the day my brother called me and that’s when I decided to tell him everything that was going on so he decided to help me, but then again my babys father promised me that he was going to change and I believed him so I decided to come back to Texas and get on birth control because I did not feel secure, what would I do with a baby and a man like that, but when I got here it was to late.  I was pregnant so I decided to have my baby and give his father another chance but he was still the same.  He never kept not one of his promises he didn’t work or if he did he would only do so for a couple of days and if I told him something he would slap me pull my hair and throw me on the bed.  Social workers always asked if any of this happened to me but I always coverd it up and never said a word about it.  And it kept going on through all my pregnancy then came the big day May 9, 2007 I gave birth to my first child, a beautiful baby boy, it was the best thing that had ever happened to me in life.  I couldn’t believe that a little person had came out of me.  I was so happy and so was his dad.  He then even made more promises so I felt for it again not knowing that he wasn’t ever going to change, but after two months the problems came back again he always said mean things to me to humiliate me I always felt bad and he made me think that I was the worst mother there could be.  But I would look at my son and deep inside I knew that it was not true I knew that I was a good mother so every day I cried and cried not knowing what to do until the day alley’s house called me. 

Ever since that day I knew and felt that this program was going to be a lot of help for me, my son was 3 months old at that same time his dad left out of town and he would come home only on the weekends but every weekend it was all fights.  This happened for at least 5 months when my son was 8 months old, that’s when I told my parent about it but they didn’t believe me because he was such a good brain washer.  He would get them against me I couldn’t even go out with my mentor or talk on the phone, have friends or go to the kitchen by my self because he was always around, it was hard and my baby was always watching I never told anybody  exactly what was going on until my son turned 10 months old.  That’s when he told me that he was going to kill me if I took my son away from him so I came to alley’s house and decided to let them know what was going on, I had enough of it and I was not going to put my son at risk with a man who aint worth it.  Everyone at alley’s house helped me a lot and I appreciate God for putting these nice people in my way because if it wasn’t for them, I don’t know where I would have been at this moment.  Now my son is 11 months old and will be one in a couple of days.  Now I have my parents support and am happy all alone with my son and I am working on getting my GED so I could go to cosmetology school and get on ahead in life and make my son proud of me and hopefully in the future my dream of having my own beauty salon can come true and now I know that guys like his dad will never change because that’s how he was born and that how he will stay.  Now the most important thing is my son and I want to let him know that mommy will always be here to support him and protect him and I will do my best to give both of us a good life and a good future, and his future is my life and my future, and his future is on my hands so thanks to alley’s house and God I know that everything is going to come out great.  So for all those girls that are going through the same thing that I went through don’t wait till the last moment, speak up, let it out your not alone because there is someone out there that’s willing to help you.

I want to thank alley’s house for all their support and help.  Thank you!
(Ashley, Sierra, Allison, Phyllis and Colleen)  Thank you guys.

-Daniela Rodriguez          April 29, 2008